Over the past several months I didn’t post much on any site because life was so jam-packed with putting my desires into action that I didn’t have time to write or post. Also, I was trapped in quarantine in a toxic relationship, so there was also no space or clarity to write.
Given what I know now about the law of attraction, I definitely believe that it works. Because my situation was so desperate and so draining, I didn’t have any pride about trying the law of attraction. I figured, if it works, great. If it doesn’t, I couldn’t possibly be any worse off.
So, I really went to work, visualizing the outcome I knew I needed to happen. I needed to move out of the apartment I was sharing with the toxic partner, but – Covid. Damn you, Covid! How was I going to move when I didn’t have any money at the time, and no one was showing apartments anyway?
So, I visualized what I wanted the apartment to look like and all the features I wanted it to have. In the meantime, I looked for apartments like a mad woman. I visited a few of them without an escort, applied for them, and was promptly rejected for every apartment I applied for.
I was livid. This crap doesn’t work, I thought. I’m literally doing every practice I’ve ever read about. I’m feeling good. I’m feeling like it’s already done. I’ve got the vision boards, the affirmations, the meditations, the whole nine! But I couldn’t escape the reality that no one was going to rent me an apartment if I didn’t have enough money.
But I couldn’t give up. The law of attraction had become a habit by then. And, even if it didn’t work, at least it made me feel a little better. I enjoyed focusing on the life I wanted, rather than the life that I had. So, after every heart-breaking rejection, I’d sulk for a few hours, then get right back on track.
Then, I found a website that recommended some gig work. I signed up and started working those jobs. Then the stimulus checks. Then unemployment. Then a gift out of nowhere. Then a new job. Remote. Then I started thinking outside the box.
There was no need for me to keep looking in one of the most expensive housing markets in the country. What about other states? Then I started to gain some traction. I got a couple of non-rejections. At least they were checking me out. Then I waited on pins and needles to find out. And it took days. Then more days. I started using the law of attraction to practice LETTING GO.
Once you’ve done all you can do, you don’t help yourself by continuing to think about it. At that point, you have to forget it, relax, and think about other things. So I did. Finally I got two acceptances! I picked the one I thought was best, then set out to move across the country.
Had I ever lived in this new state? No. Had I ever VISITED this state? No. Had I ever seen – in person – the apartment I had just rented? No. But I packed my stuff and set out for my new destiny anyway.
I drove there in two days. My new apartment had every single feature I had prayed for. It was better than anything I had looked at previously and been turned down for. It is the best apartment I’ve ever lived in, period. And the manager is the sweetest woman on earth – and a new Facebook friend.
So, yes, I believe the law of attraction is a real thing. It doesn’t work for things that are physically impossible (like avoiding death). And it certainly doesn’t work without some kind of effort. But, what it does do is: it makes sure that every action you take is in line with your truest and deepest desires. It focuses your attention. It keeps you from scattering your efforts, becoming lazy, or shooting yourself in the foot.
My take on the law of attraction is that it’s not magical. And it’s not a “trick.” We’re simply more powerful than we think we are. The “law” of attraction is a tool to access the highest functioning the mind has to offer. It works because humans have evolved to solve problems – problems of cultivating nature, avoiding predators, and healing illnesses. Our minds are just a lot more insanely powerful than we give them credit for. The law of attraction allows us to get out of our own way and make shit happen!
So, now that that’s cleared up, I’m moving on to achieving my entrepreneurial goals. I’m merging my blogs and websites so that I can do what I know I do best – teach and encourage.
I’m embracing who I am – a bohemian boss bitch. And I’m counting on the fact that there are others like me.